I love my Master with all my heart, my body, my soul. Being here, home with Him has ignited a more intense need on my part to serve, for rules, to know my boundaries. This isn’t about visiting for a short time, or having a crazy weekend, it’s about living real life, and as much as there are fantasies about how a D/s real life relationship should be, the truth is, that its just day to day living, with the ability to incorporate the D/s aspect in a subtle way or in an open way depending on the opportunity at hand.
This need I feel, is beautiful I think. The need to want to please, serve, help, be available, be pleasing, is just burning in me. But at the same time, we all need our space, so I’m trying to figure out how to balance that as well, and something for me to bring up for discussion. I need to work on verbalizing how I feel more, again lol. It’s just that sometimes I feel so much I don’t know how to or when to bring things up.
I do my reflections in the morning, and I’ve been reading my submissive’s prayer from the last post, and that really helps me gain focus. I kneel during my reflections and this morning my focus after the prayer was on the act of kneeling. Master and I are equals as people, human beings, but I’ve chosen to submit to Him, to give Him my submission, my self, and in making that choice I kneel before Him. Kneeling demonstrates my submission, it demonstrates that even though we both know we are equals in one realm, we are not in another. It demonstrates, strength, humility, devotion, and just simple contentment being at His feet. It also shows Him, my respect as my Master, my Dominant, all done willingly. I love the quote for the picture I posted above, because it does gain His attention, in a positive and respectful way. Submission is an ever learning process.
I picked this topic of kneeling because it’s an act that again when the opportunity arises, its how I want to show that aspect of my submission. Sometimes there just aren’t words to convey my love and appreciation, and sometimes actions without words say the most…. I think anyways…
I love You Master xoxo ((me))
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